In RESPONSE to a question on a question regarding the Christian or rather Mormon doctrine that those people who are mentally challenged or handicapped, are highly evolved souls who are automatically protected from sin / granted immediate access to heaven etc. =============== I believe most of those doctrines are solely the creation of man to make people feel special, more or less politically correct spirituality. While every soul, and every intelligence, is not judged and the same unto God, to claim they must be highly evolved spiritual beings, because they are mentally challenged is a polite formality for not understanding their purpose in life. True, they may be highly evolved, and chose upon birth to inhabit a body that would have limited mental or physical capacity but for the most part this choice to do so is simply a learning experience for that soul / incarnation, as well most of them do it for karmic reasons / lessons as well. Quite simply in a previous mortality that ...

This goes out to the Universe and to anyone, I come from a dimension other than this, a place of love where there are no hurts or or distress. I was, am a being of light with nothing but my hand and my heart to offer you in times of plight. I know I've been down and self-burdened a lot but all I want is for life to give me some comfort and to enjoy the little things and the only family I got. I feel alone in this world, and misunderstood, and I seem to have lost the one who I always knew could, make me smile, and make me feel important. All I want is for someone to understand who I am to accept me for that, and not to be selfish but for me to be their focus. I don't have much in physical means to offer, but I have all the love in my heart, that I will always be there no matter what. I want happiness for myself and my children, to be good dad and raise them in a God loving home. I wanted my soul mate to raise them with me, but perhaps I should have not asked for her, because the...

I've started on my second week of my new job at FedEx, I don't know what I was thinking signing up there other than the $11 an hour on my mind, and I wanted people to be proud of me that I finally got out an got work, but I'm close to saying screw them. Everyone I talked to beforehand said the job was really hard and didn't recommend I do it if I am not used to the labor. But I did it anyway. I've lost 5 pounds in the past 3-4 days, probably mostly sweat. They have me working on 4 trucks bouncing back and forth at the same time, and all the belts / chutes trucks are all backed up like crazy, and most of the time I am by myself when I thought I was supposed to have someone work with me, but the dock manager took all the guys down to other trucks that were too busy. So Monday I ended up with chest pains into my hands, my mouth, head began hurting, I got dizzy and almost passed out twice. Kept loosing my footing. By 8 Pm I could barely lift anything my arms wouldn'...

I want to be the one to stroke your hair to touch your face but I can no longer be that one to wipe your tears in this time and place. I want to be there to pick you up to end your pain to keep you warm through the coldest rain but I just seem to cause you more harm that I cannot explain I must let you go to fix your dreams I must let you go to heal this sting that my selfish words have caused and my ignorance brings I must let you go to heal your heart I must let you go to set you free or it will tear us apart and I don't believe that is to be I must let you go so I can grow and find my strength and perhaps I will find a greater purpose behind all this angst I feel like I am losing my closest friend so I must let you go before that ends. I can not destroy you or myself, but must be apart so we can mend. So I must let go and move on to save me and you. even though the future is not certain I must trust myself and...

We just finished up our Deep Tissue massage training at school, and I have what I think is my hardest theory test so far coming up on Tuesday, on the nervous system, which even the best in the class are nervous about their grade. I have studied and been working on it for 2 weeks and everything is still so foreign to me, lately not much has been soaking into my brain, and you think with the amount of notes and repitition something would be memorized by now. Well I know a few things, like neurons and glia are nerve cells, and nerve pain is neuralgia, but other than that I think I'm screwed this time. I'll try to keep a positive outlook and find time to study this weekend. I got an 81% on my clinical practical exam, just about everyone else got a 90% or above which really frustrates me having the lowest grade in the class when I thought I was doing so well. A major problem was I had to work on the arm and I was absent that day, as well as being nervous and out of sync that day...

Current mood: aggravated I'm sitting up late again with trouble sleeping, and an upset stomach, probably stress. I'll be home all day tomorrow, missing out on a day of school because Carrie has a required important meeting, so I guess I'll take the kids somewhere for a little, and probably take them into school to check if I have any work to pick up. I really shouldn't miss the gym that much, or at least try to compensate by walking, that really wiped me out today, but I wasn't in the best of moods when I went in. I just found out the only good friend I had from high school just moved to CA without even letting me know when I was just about to go see him, heck I was even thinking about possibly going up this weekend, as I never got to see his baby or meet his wife. So much for getting back in touch with somebody. So that leaves me with one good friend, my wife, who is one day h...

I took my kids to the Fairy Festival south of York today with my mom and grandma. I enjoyed myself for awhile, but my kids did all the fun stuff within the first 20 minutes of being there, and were left with not much left to entertain. While all the fairies and neat costumes were something to look at, eventually you just kept walking in a circle around nothing but people selling stuff, so I was disappointed that it seems to have turned into just a big commercial thing, instead of what I think it was intended for. It was hot and my mom's boyfriend just kept staring at all the young girl's boobs, not that I didn't notice somethings myself, maybe that's why I fell down. Toward the end there I stepped on this old loose piece of cement, lost my footing and fell hard down on my ass in front of everyone, cutting my right leg up pretty good in the process, bleeding and stinging in the hot sun. The kids got tired and cranky so I ended up carrying around my 4 year old on my ba...