Showing posts from August, 2005

Night Visitors

The past two nights sleeping alone I have had some interesting visitations, though one was probably induced, one was startling. Two nights ago about midnite I got to bed after watching some of the movie A.I. (artificial intelligence) I am not sure what is up with that movie, as the first time I watched it I got very nauseated and sick all night. I started feeling out of it again and fell asleep watching it. I went back to bed and as I layed down I looked out the window, and my camcorder and fan are sitting on the sill. As I glanced I saw a shadowy transparant, but obvious hand, in between my camera and fan, it was making a waving, almost grasping motion as its long skinny fingers went from outstretched to clasping. I then saw a shadow, not in any particular shape, move from the window, across the room to near the doorway. At that same exact time my three year old ran down the hallway crying, not sure why but something scared her. I put her back in bed and she sucked her fingers ti

Starseed Characteristics

From (author) Brad Steiger & Revised by Ariana of Cloverleaf Ashtar Command Answers by Todd Jumper *************** 92% have a lower than normal body temperature (I'm usually warmer than my wife) 73% have low blood pressure (not me - its usually normal height) 65& have chronic sinusitis (? headaches maybe) 10% have extra or transitional vertebrae (my tail fell off years ago) 15% have an unusual blood type (like what? lime green?) 10% have both an extra vertebra and unusual blood type (geez a tail and green blood?) 84% are highly sensitive to light (hmm most starseeds I met enjoy light) 72% are sensitive to touch (which part of my body? wink wink say no more) 84% are sensitive emotionally ( Yes... cries...) 46% suffer from swollen or painful joints (Yes, both my freakin' knees) 69% endure pain (or discomfort) in the back of their neck (Only when a 3 year old is sitting on it) 60% are adversely affected by high humidity (Who isn't?! It makes these little salty water d


I just started suffering from a broken wisdom tooth under my gum again, along with a migraine headache from yesterday, and heartburn and poison ivy on my neck, made for one hell of a night's sleep. Toward morning I was still in much pain and I remember Carrie placing her hand on my face and most of the severe pain went away and I do not feel as cranky. I had a dream this morning I was outside the old LDS church I went as a child, and I was packing things into my car, mostly spiritual related books. I was standing on top of a stack of books talking down at people asking them to leave behind their mundane religous ways and come with me. I saw Carrie and her brother Raymond as they were in their teens and called to them. Carrie was the only one who came with me, and Raymie I just gave him the finger out of jest and he took off laughing. Another part of the dream my father had moved back to PA, which sort of looked like the Selinsgrove area, but could have been anywhere. He was ba

Getting ready :)

I have all things in place now to start school on September 28th for Massage Therapy. Carrie took out a loan on her retirement to help with the remaining costs, which she now says I'm her bitch forever ;) That's fine with me. I've been doing some meditation sessions with her, not getting a lot through so perhaps I need to try some new techniques, but somethings I got through last night seemed interesting, so I will write them down. Perhaps it was a future event, or something spiritually symbolic going on behind the scenes. There seemed to be a lot of Catholic images, though I am not Catholic or have any interest in the religion. First I began seeing men in the room in front of me dressed in gowns, white and grey, more like priest robes, and they were standing in line walking slowly in front of me. Then a scene appeared of inside a cathedral from a side view, as men were walking up the aisle. The room was dark, shades of dark blue, very shadowy, with people standing in t

Visit from Fairies?

Ok, now you might think I'm weird, but last night I was visited by two fairies, and no I wasn't smoking anything, I don't do that. I can not say for sure how I saw them, but I know that they overlapped my normal eyesight. I just layed down in bed and was pondering in thought, over the life changes, and energy shifts going on. I was thinking of my wife, and the troubles we have been going through as of late, when I saw in my vision what at first I thought was a butterfly, but then realized it was my inner clairvoyant vision kicking in, but usually I need my eyes closed, course I guess the bedroom was dark enough. This winged creature came fluttering in from my left around my head, its wings were shades of purples and yellows, and then I could see a small skinny white body of a female entity at the center, it was hard to make out the features, since she was surrounded in this sparkling light, but I could make out her glowing eyes and smile. Another one flew in from my right

Birth and Death

Our cat Binky finally gave birth to kitten early Thursday morning. Carrie was up a lot during the night with her, worried and waiting. She came in during the night to tell me it was happening, and showed me a kitten had been born still, and attempts to revive it failed. I waited up awhile downhearted some, until I witnessed another one being born, which was well and alive and still appears healthy. Later that morning, Carrie found the third kitten, also dead underneath some laundry. I buried the brother and sister later that day in the hot sun. My 3 year old daughter who had no knowledge of the exact number of kittens, told my grandmother that "Binky had a dream she had three kittens but when she woke up she had one kitten." Grandma asked Ariel how she knew this, to which she just replied "Because I live in that house!" Carrie then later explained to little Ariel that Binky did indeed have three kittens but two of them had died and gone to kitty heaven. We ha

Happy Birthday and more :)

For those who have forgot, my birthday was on the 5th, I am now 29 years old. I am only one year away from the big 30, I can't believe I am that old. I try to think back to where I thought I was going to be at 20 and I probably thought Jesus would have been back by now and I would be in the middle of world war 3, although some people believe we are. Some people even believe that Jesus is coming back this year in a UFO, and the economy will collapse totally by October, I don't know what to believe when it comes to that, but if it were true, then why would spirit prompt me to start college in September! I guess people are seeking so desperately for a way out of oppresive life that they choose to believe these things will happen, when you can change your outlook on life right now, and it does not need some big drastic event to do it. Enjoy each day for what it is, whatever comes your way and keep moving on. My family just went down to Baltimore yesterday to see the Aquarium


Toward the end of the service, the Minister asked, "How many of you have forgiven your enemies?" 80 percent of the congregation held up their hands. The minister then repeated his question. All responded this time except one small elderly lady. "Mrs. Jones, are you not willing to forgive your enemies?" the minister asked. "I don't have any." She replied. smiling sweetly. "Mrs. Jones, That is very unusual. How old are you?" "Ninety-eight" she replied. "Oh, Mrs. Jones. Would you please come down in front and tell us all how a person can live ninety-eight years and not have an enemy in the world." The little sweetheart of a lady tottered down the aisle, faced the congregation, and said: "I outlived the bitches."


Enough of the poetry ;) I'm sure it was depressing enough. So I will write about upcoming changes / or current ones in my life. The past month has been difficult but things are getting better. If all goes well with financial aid I will be starting school in September for Massage Therapy. I have awakened, from what feels like a long slumber, and I want to do things I have not done before. I want to help people as well as myself, and feel strongly that this is the right decision, though some people might think its strange for me. I feel different now. Just looking people in the eyes is easy. Sure there are times when I am still quiet, but I am getting better, and walking right up to people, inhibitions are gone, feelings of love I had not had in years are back, I feel like a teenager again. Our cat Binky will also see changes, as any day now she will have kittens. They have really been kicking. You should see how excited MY WIFE (hehe) Carrie is getting and she keeps telling