late night ramblings

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late night ramblings

cant sleep again
feel alone
worried about the future
not looking forward to separation
dont want to hurt my kids
dont want to lose carrie...
its unfair
its uncertain
i want peace of mind and heart

what i want for christmas
to open a card
and for that card to say
"I love you Todd and I am staying with you"
nothing would make me happier

but i fear christmas will come and go
without what I want the most

but at least I get to spend it with her and the kids
but in the back of my mind
I will always know
it could be happier

well time for bed goodnite

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